It’s the programming of everything we do. The way I saw the brain tumor I had is like a computer virus 😈 I didn’t even realize how much it was affecting my personality! 😱 I constantly thought something must be wrong, but thought “I must be burnt out” 🙈 I used to workout before work and then cook when I got home back in the day. Always go-go-go!
I’ve been called the energizer bunny 🐰 before 😂 and then the last year (or more) I noticed so many changes, gradually getting worse 🙇🏻♀️ it would take me an hour to get out of bed every morning, there would be weekends where I would literally stay in bed or on the couch all day, working out (my passion 💪🏼) felt like a chore and I wouldn’t even perform at the level I know myself to perform, even my volleyball 🏐 skills had diminished 😱 cooking 👩🏻🍳 (another passion) felt boring and I’m typically a creative cook, I like to make up recipes, yet NOTHING was inspiring me and the desire was completely gone 😳 I would come home from work and plop on the couch, watching Netflix series, one after another.
My passion for being a health coach and helping people with their health goals had completely disappeared, I would get exhausted at work and had even slowed down 😣 still performing of course, but not at the level I know myself to perform! 🙄
Project planning, which I always loved, felt torturous! 😳 I had even become super indecisive! 🤔 I would contemplate different decisions WAY longer than I ever knew myself to do, as if my gut feeling and intuition was non existent 😳
I also began to dread dolling up 💁🏻 and going shopping, wearing pretty much the same things over and over, to the point of having lost my sense of fashion to some extent, and now I can’t wait to shop again! 💃🏻
When you first purchase a computer 💻 it performs at optimal speed, fastest it can be 💫 and then if a virus 😈 attacks, programs slow down and the computer overall stops performing at its best! That’s what had happened to me, the tumor, being on the right frontal lobe, had totally affected all these personalities! 😱 I needed the “virus” removed and my brain defragmented 😂 (can’t you tell I got my degree in Computer Science & Engineering 🤓😂)
The right frontal lobe plays a key 🔑 role in our higher mental functions such as motivation, drive, memory, planning, organizing, social behavior, creativity, intuition, etc… ALL of which I felt returned 4-5 days post surgery! 😱
Why do I share? Because the majority of us tend to ignore the whispers of our body, until our body screams and sometimes it can be too late 😣 I know I ignored the whispers for years apparently, had I listened earlier, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten to the point of all the personality changes (the body screaming) 💖
Everything happens for a reason though and at the end I’m thankful we caught it when we did! 😍