Even though I had surrendered to Divine Timing the last several months, I kept having a feeling this was the month! ๐คฐ๐ป
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Well last Sunday night I had a dream I got my menstrual cycle, so I woke up Monday feeling emotional knowing it was hormonal, whether PMS or pregnancyโฆ
My vivid dreams usually come true, so I partly knew it wasnโt the right timing, but for the first time in months I had an attachment and expectation. ๐คฆ๐ปโโ๏ธ
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So of course the emotions took over and I played shitty volleyball Monday morning, which made matters worse since itโs meant to be my HAPPY placeโฆ ๐ข
And the emotions continued to get worse without any reason other than feeling emotional & continuously crying. ๐ญ
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Iโm a believer in feeling your FEELINGS rather than distracting & suppressing them because what you resist, PERSISTS!
So I allowed myself to be & so thankful for my hubby & good friends for supporting me during these down times as I was able to unfold all the emotions & the attachment I hadโฆ
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And I hadnโt even gotten my menstrual cycle yet! ๐ฑ
Tuesday I wake up & I noticed my cycle may be starting, but I was 5 days early! ๐ณ
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Not normal for meโฆ ๐
So I took a pregnancy test to at least get off that fence of uncertainty, cuz thatโs just a painful place to be! ๐
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It was negative, and even though I already knew & havenโt been emotional about it in MONTHS, I balled yet again! ๐ญ
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Shortly after my cycle started, yes 5 days early & who knows why. ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ
Expectations will always create disappointment & I KNOW this, yet sometimes those human emotions take over. ๐ฅบ
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Iโm back to being HIGH VIBING & still KNOW weโre meant to be parents more than ever now! ๐ฅฐ
SURRENDERING yet again and have set my weekโs intentions to JOY, since that was my Angel Card Intuitive Reading this week for those of you in my ๐๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ ๐ง๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฒ or watch me LIVE on Instagram Mondays! ๐ฎ๐๐ซ
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