Talk about having ALL the emotions in one day yesterday with good news to CELEBRATE! 🎭 (No I’m not pregnant YET 😉)
From feelings of PTSD at my OBGYN to PURE JOY at the beach playing volleyball! 😥😍
PTSD can happen after experiencing or witnessing a traumatic event and it may last months or years, with triggers that can bring back flashbacks or memories of the trauma accompanied by intense emotional and physical reactions that’s out of your control…
I didn’t even know I had it from the sonohysterogram last July. 😣
Sonohysterogram is a special kind of ultrasound exam. It also is called saline infusion sonography, or SIS. Fluid is put into the uterus through the cervix using a thin plastic tube. Sound waves are then used to create images of the lining of the uterus.
Apparently I have a “titled cervix” and retroverted uterus making this exam more difficult and painful for me than most…
1 in 5 women has a cervix and uterus that tilt back toward the spine instead of sitting upright or leaning slightly forward in the lower abdomen, which doctors refer to as a “tilted uterus” or “retroverted uterus.”
Thankfully this doesn’t cause any health, fertility, or pregnancy problems.
Last year at the fertility center they had a trainee nurse do the work and for 20+ minutes she was having the most difficult time putting in the catheter into my cervix making it feel like I was having my insides torn apart while simultaneously being stabbed with a knife internally! 😩
And I have high pain tolerance! 😳
They had to give me a 15min rest where I just cried until the PA came to try all over again! 😖
And then I was told I have an “abnormal” cervix and uterus as well as an abnormal scan due to the discovery of a polyp… 🤦🏻♀️
Plus they gave me no 1:1 time to decompress or see if I have any questions. 😒
I’ll never forget that day when I couldn’t wait to get in my car to scream and ugly cry like you wouldn’t believe, releasing all that I just went through! 😭
And then I didn’t even realize the subconscious impact it had on me where I NEVER wanted to do that exam again or anything like it to remove that polyp, so I started some holistic and homeopathic treatments on my own. 🤷🏻♀️
A couple months ago while chatting with a friend, we discovered that I had PTSD around this, which has been why I’ve avoided Western options…
So after I used 𝗣𝗦𝗬𝗖𝗛-𝗞® with myself around PTSD, because YES IT’S POSSIBLE! 🥰
And voilà! 🪄
So this time I made sure my doctor was an expert and NOT a trainee, and yes she too said there was difficulty, and yes there was still crazy pain, but thankfully it was much quicker and shorter this time! 🥲
Because of the PTSD tho tears just kept rolling down my eyes without my control…
And then I cried after she was done for no apparent reason as if the last pieces of that PTSD were being released and healing was happening! ❤️🩹
Afterward she took me into a different room to explain everything informing me this is just a difference in anatomy while showing me pictures of the female anatomy, saying it’s like being blonde or brunette, but more like being right handed vs left handed – she loved that analogy I gave btw! 👩🏻⚕️
🗞 GOOD NEWS 🗞 there is NO polyp and my uterus is a clean slate! 🥳🥳🥳
Which I celebrated with an evening of beach volleyball releasing any other emotions that remained and grounding with another Earth! 🌎
So get to know your anatomy because it can make a difference when you see future doctors and if you’re experiencing PTSD, consider contacting me to reprogram the event that caused your PTSD! 🧠❤️🩹🪄💖💫