That’s my REBIRTH age! 🥰
7 years ago today I went in for an MRI due to these massive headaches I had been having that were gradually increasing for several years to the point of vomiting & losing sense in my left fingers & left side of my face! 🤕🤮
My life saving doctor suggested to get an MRI due to a hunch she had since every symptom pointed to migraines… 🤕
And boy I’m so grateful she had that hunch rather than prescribing me migraine meds! 🥹
I went in for what was supposed to be a 15min MRI, yet lasted much longer and I was injected with this thing called “contrast”. 🧠🩻
Come to find out much later, MRI contrast is like a “dye” that’s used to improve the visibility of internal body structures in MRI, especially when something suspicious is seen. 😣
Not knowing what’s going on while remaining still in that tiny tube with all kinds of loud beeping noise, I kept calming myself down as I knew I had to be present…
What was panicking going to do anyway?! 🤨
I was then escorted to the ER by the MRI tech without explanation, and even when I asked what’s going on, he said I’ll have to wait for the doctor. 🙄
I called Ashkan immediately since I went alone and was planning to head to volleyball after…
Instead I was in an ER bed waiting 2+ hours for the doctor to tell me WTH is going on? 😳
I was moved to ICU a few hours later, had a craniotomy 5 days after the swelling in my brain was reduced, and out the hospital in 10 days total, shocking all the docs & staff! 🤯
An encapsulated avocado sized brain tumor plus margins were removed within an astonishing surgery time of 1 hour! 🥑🧠
I still don’t believe it, but Ashkan adamantly says it was less than an hour when it was supposed to be a 4-6 hour surgery. 🤯
Cancer was a GIFT for me because it woke me up to feel gratitude for the first time deep in my soul! 🥹
Grateful to be ALIVE and so much more to the point of gratitude tears overflowing! 🥲
I used to be a pessimist… YES, ME… always thinking others are out to get me or jinx me or I’m not meant to have it all… 🧿
So of course I would attract more of that! 😑
Believe it or not I was really private on social media too, and did NOT like getting tagged in pictures! 🤭
Thankfully I had started personal transformation & self development a couple years before 8.23.2017, so I was able to remain calm & present in the face of uncertainty… shockingly! 😮
I had NO CHOICE but to be positive, there was NO WAY I was going out of this world like this! 🙅🏻♀️
Something took over me and it felt like a NEW me emerged! 🦋
My life changed forever, and for the BETTER! 🥰
Since then that’s how I approach life:
Believe & have faith in the BEST most MAGICAL vision, knowing everything is always working out for your highest good! 🪄💖✨
Even being diagnosed with grade 4 GBM brain cancer! 🧠
Although with these fertility hormones I’ve been having flashbacks of the old, untransformed me at times… 🫣💉😂
Which only means more triggers to heal! ❤️🩹
I don’t believe in “hope for the best and expect the worst”, or “don’t get your hopes up so you don’t get disappointed”, or even having a Plan B… 😒
Imagine if I would have approached brain cancer with that mindset. 😳
I would NOT be here today, because as I always say MINDSET IS KEY! 🔑
And besides, that’s how PLACEBO works. 😉
I rather approach every situation, including fertility, with an optimistic, best case perspective…
Feeling that deep desire within my bones & soul! ❤️🔥
AND being ALL in, with ZERO doubt that everything is truly working out for me MAGICALLY! 🪄💖✨
Otherwise the NOCEBO effect will take over! 🫣
And if things don’t work out as expected, there is a reason it didn’t work out and one day you may realize it didn’t work out for your highest good, as difficult as it may be to believe that…
And THEN you deal with the grieving and the next Plan A… no Plan B. 🙂↕️
I truly believe EVERYONE has the ability to heal from whatever physical trauma or conditions they’re experiencing IF that’s in their soul’s highest good.
Physical symptoms are messengers to what remains suppressed, repressed, and unhealed within the subconscious mind…
And by working on your past trauma, or even generational trauma, doing that tough, heart wrenching shadow work, you too have the ability to heal! ❤️🩹🪄🦋
